lunesta
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Today i actually ate past halfway through a cranberry bun without realizing that there were a lot of ants crawling all over it. I can't believe i was so oblivious. I must have taken a lot of protein. I think i assumed for so long that whatever consumed within the confines of this house is clean. Sheesh.
I'm not going to school tomorrow. A lot of boring talks i have already sat through, so there is no point. Oh man... I feel so sad of the fragmentation of 08S403. Damn, that was a swell class. I really hope a few of us will remain, and the newcomers will not be too bad.
I don't know why, but after following all the Damaians, our bunch, and Ben and Sabrina, back to Damai, i felt really sad when they all left to go in one direction- some home, some back to TPJC, but all in one direction, leaving me on the 66 228 route, once more, once again. It's been a long time since i have been sad and not been able to pin the cause of it. So i did what i used to do long time ago. Think deep and hard for the cause of my sadness, but i couldn't find it. I don't like that. Like that i can't even attempt to reconcile with whatever is poisoning my emotions if i don't know the root of it. Oh man. That sounds damn emo.
Getting my haircut tomorrow. I don't usually imagine such things, but lately i think i have been stared at by strangers a bit too often to my comfort. I hope it's not because i look wierd or something lol...
posted by joseph at 5:43 PM